Doubt you will ever be free without this.

What exactly are you accepting—self-accepting—after your (self) diagnosis? 

Are you forcing society to accept you?

I’ve contemplated running away from investigating this topic many times. Simply by stating I’m autistic and accepting it, how would it change my life as a whole? Self-acceptance is a profound and expansive topic, unfolding in layers upon layers. We all must confront it at some point, whether on the spectrum or not. Self-exploration to understand what Autism means for us as individuals—that’s the task. I doubt anyone could achieve self-acceptance with a simple diagnosis; it’s the first step, an external label proclaiming, “You are autistic.”

 

Now, I don’t know about you but I’ve never got an instruction manual for my personality. Apparently it comes pre – loaded with character traits, hugely typical ones, no less.

I invested significant time to comprehend what Autism is, and the more I delved, the more vast it became. With every reading session, I experienced “aha” moments and smiles of recognition, akin to connecting with a character in a book or movie for a fleeting moment.

 

So how one does go about self acceptance, or what is there to accept in the first place? 

I discovered that without truly understanding what Autism is and what it means for myself, including the part it plays in dominating my life, the concept of self-acceptance becomes vague. Moreover, it raises the question of why it might unnecessarily exert extra pressure on society or one’s surroundings to accept you, rather than you embracing yourself.

 

Why not refrain from anything expecting society?

It’s significant, regardless of whether one is autistic or not, as the journey to self-discovery always begins within. Delving into blogs and journals about masking, coaching, and therapy, I found valuable insights inviting us on similar journeys. Yet, I remained unconvinced they would lead to genuine connections. At 47, I’ve developed numerous traits and coping mechanisms, navigating through immense PTSD and neuropathies. I sought something more immediate, something that would unravel and reconnect me. Amidst all the resources, I felt a crucial element was missing—a roadmap to reconnect..

 

But as they say, what you seek, seeks you – Reconnect

Without deeply grasping this concept, one can’t truly approach what the well-being industry offers, especially concerning autism. The time spent in masking is staggering. Stripping away the layers to confront the aggression and sadness stemming from not authentically being oneself is daunting. Relishing the journey of searching for one’s long-lost blueprint requires a pillar of support, something to lean on, something to trust, which can’t come from external sources alone. 

I’ve often felt wholly dependent on friends, coaches, healers. My thoughts and emotions were often overpowering, leaving me feeling hopeless. The sensory overwhelm wasn’t confined to external stimuli; it permeated my inner world. Everything seemed louder, faster, sensations shaking my skin and bones. I couldn’t outrun them. I yearned for an escape and found it amidst the cacophony within my heart and brain. I had to delve in and cut through the myriad of inner noise. Without controlling the adrenaline induced by the sensations of feelings and thoughts, I would have been powerless. 

In Meditation, your Mantra becomes your guide.

It will filter out frustration, powerlessness, and the fear of being trapped inside. It’s akin to a yellow brick road leading to your peace, guiding you right into your heart. Your instinct will assure you that you can trust this. You can go with it, and peace will gradually blossom within. Until you finally achieve independence, becoming your own powerhouse, returning to your heart with half a liter less adrenaline coursing through your brain. 

Once you experience this moment, it marks the true beginning of what you truly desire: self-acceptance. Until this moment, everything will be tied to external guidance, and you won’t truly be free.

About ReConnection

Reconnection is a monumental aspect of reclaiming oneself. It serves as the cornerstone to well-being, yet when it involves shedding years of camouflage, it requires mastery. Peeling off these masks is undoubtedly challenging, but with the right tools and approach, the process becomes more manageable. 

While discussions are essential, solely talking about it may prolong the journey indefinitely.

For me, working on my mindset and beliefs surrounding acceptance became a daily practice, as natural as taking a breath. I embarked on a profound exploration of my soul, seeking to maintain a sense of authenticity amidst the chaos. Healing became my prayer, meditation my sanctuary, and Theta Healing a swift eraser for outdated belief systems.

This journey is courageous.

It entails bravely delving into oneself, reclaiming long-lost presence in our bodies, and fearlessly exploring the depths of our being through genuine acceptance. 

It’s a testament to the courage required to confront our true selves and embrace them wholeheartedly.